Title: Cheating Hearts
Rating: PG-13?
Member/Pairing: JunxOhno, Juntoshi, Ohmoto?
Author: nana_chan
Notes: Please note that this is a rather feeble attempt at a one shot, and if it sucks, please feel free to tell me.



Ohno POV
Will things always be this way? I wondered to myself as I lay in bed awake like always.

It's been almost a year since this thing between Jun and I started, it's become routine. Every night when I was sure Nino was asleep, I would sneak out of our apartment to meet up with Jun at some various hotel. It was always a different location...we couldn't have people noticing us in the same place; together every night.

We were hurting, the both of us. I couldn't help how I felt about him, and he couldn't help how he felt about me, but that wasn't the problem. We were already in commited relationships. Me with Nino, and Jun with Aiba. It wasn't just us that were being hurt, it was the other two as well. Both Nino and Aiba, so trusting, so loving, never suspecting.

But it couldn't be helped. At first, the both of us tried to avoid it. We didn't want to hurt them this way, so we pretended we never felt that way about each other. But it was agonizing. Everytime I saw Jun, I couldn't help but feel a burning desire to hold him in my arms, to taste his lips with my own. It took every fiber of my being to restrain myself from taking him right then and there in front of everyone. I told him this after I couldn't take it anymore, and that's when we both decided to live like this. During the day, we were nothing more than friends with our own respective partners. Then at night, we were just Jun and Satoshi. Two men, two lovers. Two halves of one whole.

Now that I thought about it, it was really hard to believe that I, Satoshi Ohno, the clueless leader of Arashi was able to feel this way. Was able to do such things. Whenever people think of me, they think innocent, clueless, timid and many other things like that. If only they knew me this way. They'd see I was a liar, a cheat, a selfish creature. They'd see that I could betray my friends just to satisfy my own selfish needs.

After all, I've betrayed my lover; my best friend, my Nino. I leave him every night to be with another man but when the morning comes and I'm with him again, I'm still able to touch him with my dirty hands and kiss him with the tainted lips. I'm still able to talk to him and lie with my venomous tongue. Tears began to form in my eyes as I reflected on what I've done to Nino. I am a horrible creature.




Jun POV
Sometimes I wonder what goes through his mind when he lays there, completely oblivious to the fact that I'm watching him. Lately, I've noticed how he never sleeps once we finish what we've done so I wonder, what is he thinking about?

I was laying beside him, my arm draped over his chest. He was holding my hand, tracing intricate patterns into it with his finger. The pale moonlight streamed through the window and lit up Satoshi's face, and that's when I saw the tears fall. My heart wrenched in my chest as I watched them roll down his cheeks and onto the pillow. I wanted more than anything to wipe them away, but I fought hard not to and kept my arm where it was. He sniffled slightly and wiped his tears away with his free hand and said, "I'm sorry Kazu..." his voice was barely a whisper.

I closed my eyes when I realized why he was crying. He felt guilty about us, he felt guilty that he was betraying Nino. I felt his body tremble beside mine as he sobbed quietly. Satoshi was suffering so much; I knew he loved Nino, but I also knew that he loved me. He was struggling internally to obey what his heart was telling him. To be with the both of us.

This was probably why I started loving him in the first place. He would always try to do what was best for everyone. He never took himself into consideration. He was the complete opposite of me in this situation. Whenever I was with Satoshi...Aiba was non-existant. I pushed him out of my mind so that I would never feel guilty for doing this. Clearly, Nino was never too away from his thoughts but neither was I.

Out of all of us, only one person's heart was cheated. Not Aiba, not Nino, not me, but Satoshi.

You keep killing me with such touching angst!!!

I saw that you posted this at your LJ but for one reason or another, I ended up reading it here. I really love this fic!!! It was such a good read. And you really get to feel Ohno being torn up. *sigh*

haha thanks for reading it.

honestly, i think i could've done better...if i had made a fic out of this then it would've been more angsy (is that even a word?)

short works aren't my specialty...i like long never ending stories XD

ooohh....another idea for a jun fic *writes madly based on pathetic one shot*

You write angsty very well. Great job!

aha, thank you. i wonder how well i'll do with an angst free one-shot

That was an emotional story. I usually don't like reading angst, but this was too good to pass up. You could feel Ohno's pain. Good job!

thank you! I'm glad you read it ^^